Today I read about how the world economy is taking a plunge because of falling oil prices. The news articles were full of some very important financial stuff that is not worth discussing here since I don't understand economy or finance that much and secondly, that is not what I want to write about.
What I do want to write about, is the fear I experienced while reading those articles. I got tensed about how was I going to manage my future life, how can I save more while I can and how can I cut back on my expenses. I became more and more concerned about something unexpected that may or may not occur and spoiled my wonderful Tuesday afternoon worrying about something I have no control on.
Now I don't know about you all wonderful people out there but I do this a lot. I worry about the future a lot. I worry constantly about things that might happen, and also about those that might not happen. I worry even when I know that there's nothing I can do about those things. I can give so many examples of such situations from my daily life even before you bat an eyelid. It's so common for me that I feel weird when I am not worrying about future.
There are days and times when everything is just perfect. Everything in its own place, just as I wanted it to be. Even on such days I worry about loosing that perfect day or moment. My brain has become accustomed to all this worry I guess. And it just doesn't stop. Worrying is like a drug to me. A drug that is dragging me down with it each moment and each day.
A drug I should so stay away from.
